“I think I feel more comfortable and have more authority to say to the world, ‘This is the real me,’ she continued. album four, i’ll think i’m full of bullshit, but i hope the world is forgiving enough to let me evolve and let me change, and be able to show you a new version of me. every two years.”
Growth was a major topic throughout the evening, and Halsey’s calm expression of coming to terms with herself was genuine as she explained how maniacal quickly went from intending to make an “angry album” to something quite the opposite. “I tried to be angry, and I was so calm and so happy and proud, and I felt like I was exactly where I was supposed to be. I sat down to make a list. things I didn’t like about me because I thought it would help me make an angry album, and I wrote it and I cried. I read it and let some of my friends read it , and after writing it I didn’t find any anger with myself, I just found forgiveness. I looked at the list and said, some of these things are true, some are not. You can feel that for yourself, but it’s okay, it will be okay.
“I sat down to make the album, and I felt like I could do it in a way that wasn’t hampered by shame, fear, embarrassment or anger, I just felt right. accepted, “she added. “I felt like I dug into every nook and cranny of myself and saw all the bad sides and accepted them for what they were. I sat down and instead made an album angry I just went (sigh). And it was so good. “
The evening ended with a performance stripped of a handful of tracks, including his recent singles as well as returning favorites “Bad at Love”, “100 Letters” and “Colors”. Barefoot and singing the melodies without the mass production of an arena show, the singer delivered a performance that felt like the physical embodiment of letting Halsey sit down for a second and allowing Ashley to speak.